Sini Ariell's blog

Thoughts on happiness Toppi www.disturb.fi I've been thinking about what I could write about to be left at peace without media hype. I don't really know how I ended up in the spotlight that I've been in for the past couple years. Has it benefited me in any way? Not really. I haven't pushed myself towards it and therefore haven't also used it to gain anything. I use that spotlight to pass on good and good values. The media follows our life frantically, apparently due to the interesting story as well as the raw authenticity that I tell it with. In the end, our life surely isn't any more wonderful than anyone else's. Being present in the media so often is not my own decision. I write this blog mainly as a memory for myself and to unload pent-up or surfacing feelings. I get a lot of support through my blog and stories from different types of people. Thank you for those. It's apparent that my blog gives support and strength to many other people. I...

Minun mielestä kansanedustajan touhu pitäisi olla kaikkea muuta, kuin oman lompakon täyttämistä työvuosien aikana tai sen jälkeen. Mielestäni aivan silmittömän typerä malli jakaa sopeutumiseläkkeitä, palkkioita, torkkupeittoja ja ties mitä etuuksia heille. Kyseessä on vain yksi ammatti muiden ohella; Kansanedustaja jonka työnkuvaan kuuluu maamme asioista päättäminen. Kuvittelisin näin maallikkona, että siihen kuuluisi muun muassa Suomen kansalaisten hyvinvoinnin säilyttäminen, lait, talouden turvattu jatkuminen ja suhteiden luonti ulkomaille. Edustustehtävään valitaan henkilöt heidän vaalipuheidensa perusteella, siltikään mitään vaateita ei edes  ole lupaustensa kiinni pitämisen suhteen. Mielestäni näyttää siltä, että kansanedustajat voivat lupailla mitä tahansa ehdokkuutensa saavuttamiseksi, silti mitään takeita ei näiden henkilöiden touhusta ole sen jälkeen kun he eduskuntaan astelevat. Edut ja palkkiot, liksat ja ääretön eläke muutaman työvuosien jälkeen on naurettava. Miksi ...

Ilouutisia! Penny alkoi nukkumaan jouluaaton jälkeen öitä ja itsekin saimme levättyä hyvin Stuartin lapsuudenkodissa Old Barin hiekkarannalla. Vuosi 2017 vei meistä molemmista mehut. Liian suuria muutoksia, jotka sekoittivat molempien päät. Minulle unelmien täyttymys ja toiselle unelmien rikkoutuminen. Yllätys oli kuitenkin lopulta parasta mitä meille on koskaan tapahtunut. Kasvoimme ihmisinä niin paljon kaiken tämän vuoksi, paremmiksi versioiksi itsestämme. Tulemme kertomaan tyttärellemme rakkaudella, miten kaikki sai alkunsa. Miten äiti erosi lapsettomuuden nimissä ja löysi miehen toiselta puolelta maapalloa. Miten haaveet muuttuivat, kuin salaman iskusta ja miten rakkaus piti meidät yhdessä. Opetamme hänelle, ettei elämää voi elää haaveillen ja suunnitellen. Elämä tulee elää päivä kerrallaan ja tehdä jokaisesta hetkestä elämisenarvoista. Kerromme hänelle, miten suuri ihme hän on ja kuinka ylpeitä hänestä olemme. Opetamme hänet ottamaan elämän vastaan sellaisena mitä se tulee v...

A new year Good news! Penny began sleeping through the night after Christmas Eve and we ourselves got to rest well at Stuart's childhood home by the beach in Old Bar. 2017 drained us both. Changes that were too big and messed up both our heads. For me, the fulfillment of my dreams, and for the other, the shattering of dreams. However, in the end, the surprise was the best thing that has ever happened to us. We grew as human beings so much due to all of this to become better versions of ourselves. We will tell our daughter with love how everything started. How mom got divorced because of being childless and found a man on the other side of planet. How dreams changed as if by a stroke of lightning and how love kept us together. We will teach her that you can't live by dreaming and planning. Life must be lived day by day, making each moment worth living. We'll tell her what a great miracle she is and how proud we are of her. We'll teach her to accept life as it c...

Little Penny's first Christmas went well. She has slept a couple whole nights for the first time. That feeling of waking up after six hours of sleep is the best gift. I'm feeling immensely more lively and the whole world looks more bright. Christmas in Australia is different compared to Christmas in Finland. First of all, +36 degrees of heat and the palm trees swaying in the wind make Christmas decorations mainly humorous . Santa Claus figurines have fans in their mouths and Christmas ornaments hang from the plastic branches. On the table decorations, koalas and kangaroos have elf hats. At the Christmas table, everyone has a big cardboard candy next to their plate that is torn open with a pop together with the one sitting across the table. The one who gets the contents of the candy receives a small gift, a paper crown, and a tasteless joke on a small piece of paper. Christmas food and presents are all on Christmas Day. Nothing else happens on Christmas Eve except finishing to...

That feeling when you are at a dead end and there's no way out. That feeling when you thought everything was crystal clear and fine. That feeling when you believed everything would turn out alright and click into place when the baby comes. All of that happened, yes, until the whole thing took a big step back and we returned to the same issues. The joy of becoming pregnant and having a baby after having been diagnosed as being childless turned to great sorrow and anxiety over whether our relationship will hold out or not. You see, my husband never wanted children. Of course he fell in love with our baby and for a moment we were like a real happy family. I would have so gladly written about happy times at home in this blog, but I don't want to lie. I appreciate all the support from you and that's why I'm going to continue writing my blogs with honesty. The media sharing my texts as entertainment news often leads to a lot of people who are struggling with the same issu...

I was always the one that complained that "when people have babies, they immediately retreat into their homes and you never hear from them anymore," and why the fuck is that, as if there's nothing else in life except the baby. And then they complain that they can't go anywhere or do anything because they have a baby... My hoodie www.disturb.fi Well, you can guess what a tough lesson I've gotten from Karma for saying those things. FUCK THIS SHIT that this day-to-day real life is with a newborn. It's so true, your home becomes a prison. You get a couple hours of sleep per night. I can't even remember when I last slept from evening to dawn. Car trips are so much fun while listening to screaming for 2 hours, and you just really don't feel like stopping again when there's only 180 km to go anymore. Being awake is a continuous struggle while you try to figure out why is it whining or screaming this time and nothing really makes it easier...Not...