Fuck this shit

I was always the one that complained that "when people have babies, they immediately retreat into their homes and you never hear from them anymore," and why the fuck is that, as if there's nothing else in life except the baby. And then they complain that they can't go anywhere or do anything because they have a baby...

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Well, you can guess what a tough lesson I've gotten from Karma for saying those things.

FUCK THIS SHIT that this day-to-day real life is with a newborn. It's so true, your home becomes a prison. You get a couple hours of sleep per night. I can't even remember when I last slept from evening to dawn. Car trips are so much fun while listening to screaming for 2 hours, and you just really don't feel like stopping again when there's only 180 km to go anymore. Being awake is a continuous struggle while you try to figure out why is it whining or screaming this time and nothing really makes it easier...Not a lot of eye contact yet so it's mentally very tiring to hang out with a living doll. Yes, there's a smile once in a while and then crying and whining for the rest of the time awake.

You have milk running out of your tits continuously and all your clothes need to be planned so that you can breastfeed.

Everything is about the baby. When you finally make it out of the house for two hours, you pour wine down your throat with both hands and everyone that comes over to talk asks how things are going, even discussions with strangers are all about the baby shit!! Then you call a taxi so you can get back to the shushing. Yay.

Your belly bulges in your own clothes, you look like you're still pregnant, and your hair and face are in need of some care and soon. Your face is decorated by a couple big liver spots due to hormones and you look like you've aged 10 years in two months.

I mainly feel shocked. And I only have one baby. Hats off to those of you who have more. This completely fucking sucks. Memories of day-to-day life with a baby must grow sweeter with time for mothers to have yet more. Or then everyone just sugarcoats these things, giving a different impression to others about the brutailty of this time.

Of course it might be that for many this time is easy, as well as the pregnancy. Oh boy.

The trials of this whole year just feel so heavy. Our relationship has fallen in a deep rut, and now we're trying to scrape together little moments or talks of love. We are both so fucking exhausted. It makes you feel like just getting up and leaving.

I've always said I don't like babies, they are useless whining creatures that have slime of all colors oozing out of all holes. I was right about that.

Everyone says "it'll soon become better". Well I fucking hope so, because this completely sucks.

The best part of course is that you can't under any circumstances say that you hate this stuff. That yes, life with a baby completely sucks. I'm not pissed off about a lot, just one thing, everything. Eveything pisses me off the most. Thank you and apologies.

This is partly written humorously and while laughing, so don't get too worried. It'll be alright 😂👌🏽

----- Two hours after posting this -----
Now that the media seems to have again torn this post into their news, I'll add here that the most beloved thing in the world is my little Penny girl ❤

Don't send me hate mail, I'm not going to read it or react to it. I don't give a fuck about any sanctimonious bullshit about this.

#lovepenny #reality #grateful

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Translated from the original Finnish text by Stiina Rasimus-Sahari

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